The fear of cancer rearing it's ugly head is always present. I have been having some pain in my remaining kidney. That on top of a doctor telling me that he is worried about my kidney lab levels has me freaked. I set up an appointment with the doctor who removed cancer almost a year ago, and he reassured me that my levels, for only having one kidney were decent. He did set me up for a CT scan which I did, but had to wait two weeks for the doctor to tell me the results. Today was my appointment to get my results. The kidney is not compromised! Doing well. No enlargement. So my pain must be something else. It's funny because this past weekend there were a few days where I didn't have any pain. I have been hydrating myself better. When talking to the doctor today, he said that he wasn't any kind of an expert in back pain and I mentioned how it feels better when I'm well hydrated, and he said that when we become dehydrated, any issues we have, rear their
Last year's grateful post each day was hard to maintain. I tried. I am grateful for each and every day I'm in alive. I know I need to treat my body better though. I'm not going to make promises I won't keep. This year is about being okay with not being okay.